another one

Well, I made it through. Spent hours with my neighbor and her family and friends. Drank a lot. Took some Xanax. Took a walk. Talked to my friend, K., for a while.

I made it through.

I feel like complete crap today. I have the shakes pretty badly.

My neighbor asked me to stop by for Christmas. I might. I don't think that I'll drink though... if I can manage not to.

I have a "seizure disorder". Close enough to my actual diagnosis. My brain is damaged. I have "seizures" that I can't control. They don't have to know my history.