Terri (9/26/02)

It's raining. It's supposed to rain for a few days.

All that I keep wanting to post is "I miss you".

There are a lot of words... but my fingers don't want to type them.

I guess I'm feeling sorry for myself. I don't feel like I have any control over that though.

Still, I either "shut down" or I fall apart... and after I fall apart, I have to analyze why I'm still falling apart.


Today something occured to me... It's not just that it hurts so badly because I cared for you so much, it's that you cared for me.

I don't think that I really understood that until today.

I feel selfish.... and angry... and weak... and...


I miss you.