~down

The worst feeling in the world has to be watching yourself become stupid.

I can't find words anymore. I can't get my thoughts out of me and into a form anyone else can understand. I can't draw anymore. I can't do music anymore. I'm holding onto writing, by the skin of my teeth.

I'm losing the ability to express myself.

I've had nightmares about this, as far back as I can remember.

I'm going to have to learn how to blink "shoot me".