Tuesday, March 17, 2009
journal excerpt
...I can be me. I'm good at that. Who me is though, is a very independent guy. I'm a smokin', drinkin', fuckin', bar fly. I'm not Mike Brady. I don't want a house with a driveway, I want a crash pad in the city.
Monday, January 26, 2009
5:28pm 1/26/09
This whole thing fucks me up. I just want to BE!!! ....but yet, I cannot. Not here. Not in Cyberville. Maybe not anywhere.
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Monday, August 11, 2008
Your/My Ghost
See... the thing with ghosts is that you don't really know what they look like. You can feel a ghost, more than you can see a ghost. Ghosts may well have a primary "host" body, but they aren't always going to be in that host body. They will come through others, or even just be around without a body.
It's often rather difficult to distinguish between a person and the ghost of another, but it's possible.
Yes, that's the thing about being in love with a ghost, you often think that you're in love with the person who is (knowingly or not) playing temporary host (or conduit) to that ghost.
All that said... yes, I am in love with a ghost, and that ghost often comes through others. I often get thrown off course, and I often lose track completely.
...and all that said... yes, I AM a ghost and often a conduit as well. I come through others, and they through me. Can I tell when the ghost of another is coming through me? Most often, yes, I can. I can tell when I'm "100% me" and when I'm not. Do I remember my own ghostly travels? Sometimes I think that I do, but I can't be sure. It's about as reliable as remembering past lives. Memory lives in the brain. Ghosts don't have brains. Ghosts are just energy. So, sometimes I feel a familiar energy, but the images which my brain produces to go along with the travels, based on the residual... energy patterns, aren't exactly what I'd call "clear" or "reliable".
The ghost that I'm in love with, the one I have called my "soul mate"? I KNOW the way that ghost FEELS, and that's all that I can say I know without a doubt.
It's often rather difficult to distinguish between a person and the ghost of another, but it's possible.
Yes, that's the thing about being in love with a ghost, you often think that you're in love with the person who is (knowingly or not) playing temporary host (or conduit) to that ghost.
All that said... yes, I am in love with a ghost, and that ghost often comes through others. I often get thrown off course, and I often lose track completely.
...and all that said... yes, I AM a ghost and often a conduit as well. I come through others, and they through me. Can I tell when the ghost of another is coming through me? Most often, yes, I can. I can tell when I'm "100% me" and when I'm not. Do I remember my own ghostly travels? Sometimes I think that I do, but I can't be sure. It's about as reliable as remembering past lives. Memory lives in the brain. Ghosts don't have brains. Ghosts are just energy. So, sometimes I feel a familiar energy, but the images which my brain produces to go along with the travels, based on the residual... energy patterns, aren't exactly what I'd call "clear" or "reliable".
The ghost that I'm in love with, the one I have called my "soul mate"? I KNOW the way that ghost FEELS, and that's all that I can say I know without a doubt.
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