It's not the religion part (the God, Goddess, etc. part) that I, personally, have the problem with. It's the ORGANIZED part. I don't care whether it's a priest, Jesus, Buddha, God, Genghis Khan or Elvis that people are following/believing in.
Stupid people (aka, most people) are dangerous. In large masses, they're lethal.
Tuesday, January 15, 2002
Wednesday, January 9, 2002
-Spiritual self expression?-
I think that my every breath is a spiritual expression.
My tattoos are a spiritual expression. Not many know what to make of them though. Most would be considered Satanic in nature, but then I'd have to actually believe in Satan to be a Satanist. I suppose that it all depends on your perspective. To many, I'd be considered evil... and maybe even be considered a Satanist because of my beliefs. I'm fine with that. In fact, I'm proud of that, and I wear my three sixes with just that... pride.
If that which is different from the Christian majority is considered Satanic, then I'm glad that I'm Satanic.
That's not an anti-individual statement. I know many "Christians" whom I respect and love. It's a broad generalization. The "Christian Majority" have no problem persecuting me or those like me. For that, I stand against them with pride... however, I have nothing but the utmost respect for Christians who have the utmost respect for me.
(hopefully that makes sense)
So... my spiritual expression?...
I AM.
(...and if there's something wrong with that, then I'm proud to be wrong, and so will advertise it loudly.)
My tattoos are a spiritual expression. Not many know what to make of them though. Most would be considered Satanic in nature, but then I'd have to actually believe in Satan to be a Satanist. I suppose that it all depends on your perspective. To many, I'd be considered evil... and maybe even be considered a Satanist because of my beliefs. I'm fine with that. In fact, I'm proud of that, and I wear my three sixes with just that... pride.
If that which is different from the Christian majority is considered Satanic, then I'm glad that I'm Satanic.
That's not an anti-individual statement. I know many "Christians" whom I respect and love. It's a broad generalization. The "Christian Majority" have no problem persecuting me or those like me. For that, I stand against them with pride... however, I have nothing but the utmost respect for Christians who have the utmost respect for me.
(hopefully that makes sense)
So... my spiritual expression?...
I AM.
(...and if there's something wrong with that, then I'm proud to be wrong, and so will advertise it loudly.)
Friday, January 4, 2002
(online conflict)
I'm not better than you at "dealing with conflict". I'm just quieter about the effect it has on me. I too hermit myself, and when I can't, I pay the price (usually in blood lost and skin/bone mangled). This last year or so of my life has all but driven me over the edge. Why? Because I was forced to live with 3 people, 3 cats, and a dog... and deal with a bunch of morons online and attempt to be fair to them, even when in reality I wanted to stomp most of them into red goop.
Tuesday, January 1, 2002
2002 Resolutions
Well, I know that it doesn't sound like anything too big... but to me it is...
Since '93 - '94, I've kept a "daily log". Basically, I've written down EVERYTHING I do EVERY DAY since the time I started it.
The main reason I started it was because with MPD/DID, there are huge gaps in one's memory. "We" started writing everything down in an attempt to enhance communication between the lot of us.
Once you do something everyday for about 8 years, it's not the easiest thing in the world to stop... but I think that I should. It has become more of an obsessive habit than anything else, at this point. Also, it's 365 pages a year that get added into the mountain of writing which I produce... and that's something I need to reduce (the mountain).
So, my resolution is to stop the Daily Log; to write whatever I want to write in my journal or on my board (which gets printed anyway), and break the habit.
Already today I feel frantic. I keep looking at the binder that I used, feeling confuzzled and lost.
I have to become ok with the fact that it's ok to forget some things... that it's not crucial to remember how many beers I drank, how many posts were on my board, whether or not I was online or playing on the computer... that it's ok to just live life, without recording everything.
Since '93 - '94, I've kept a "daily log". Basically, I've written down EVERYTHING I do EVERY DAY since the time I started it.
The main reason I started it was because with MPD/DID, there are huge gaps in one's memory. "We" started writing everything down in an attempt to enhance communication between the lot of us.
Once you do something everyday for about 8 years, it's not the easiest thing in the world to stop... but I think that I should. It has become more of an obsessive habit than anything else, at this point. Also, it's 365 pages a year that get added into the mountain of writing which I produce... and that's something I need to reduce (the mountain).
So, my resolution is to stop the Daily Log; to write whatever I want to write in my journal or on my board (which gets printed anyway), and break the habit.
Already today I feel frantic. I keep looking at the binder that I used, feeling confuzzled and lost.
I have to become ok with the fact that it's ok to forget some things... that it's not crucial to remember how many beers I drank, how many posts were on my board, whether or not I was online or playing on the computer... that it's ok to just live life, without recording everything.
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