Got a dust cloth? - I

So, what do we do with it?

It does feel nice to be over here. Not that I really hate S&S, but... I dunno... this place feels like home.


I feel sort of mad at myself that I allowed other people to chase me from here. That's pretty much what it came down to. It's not that I was too nice, but that I kept forgetting that this was MY board, y'know?

Too much trying to make everyone else happy... and WAY too much constantly explaining myself.


Lost focus, I guess.


Hmmm.... need a new avatar... maybe if any of the pics we take at the Con turn out good I'll use my own face.

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8:41 PM
...I'm sure that there are a few people who might wander by. I'm going to start using (the JBW) username on all the boards I post on. A few people might follow the link in my profile.

The only person who I left banned is (dad-unit 1). I value what little sanity I've gained from slamming that door.

Coming Out

Maybe it's boredom... I don't know. Maybe it comes from a life full of trauma/drama. It's a need to have something going on.


The DID bored... I mean, board, is really getting on my nerves.

I seem to have a need for the negative. I need balance... fluffy and goofy is necessary, but so is pissed and hostile. For every Oven Mitt there needs to be a Manson.

I want to do a change over before Dragon Con. I want to be able to celebrate going to Dragon Con on the board. I want to be able to bitch about previous Dragon Cons on the board... I want to post pictures from the past Cons on the board.


I have a need for an exploding emoticon.

Can I borrow a mommy?

I have a stomach ache.

I hate people

Right now I'm still so embarrassed and angry that I'm shaking.

I'm embarrassed that I trusted someone... that my gut was wrong.


Someone dripped their homophobia and ignorance all over me.

I'm beyond angry.


On another board where I am moderator, one of the other moderators insulted someone and used their privilege to impose their morals onto a new poster.

My instinct is to never post on that board again.


I am glad that this is online life. I don't know that I could contain my rage if it was offline.

People like that have made my entire life a living hell. I have no room for them in my life, online or off.


I can only hope that something is either done or said by someone other than me. I won't say anything. The only thing that will come out of my mouth is the flame of a Dragon.

grumbles

I'm 15 lbs overweight
My Insomnia is out of control
Regular beer is burning my stomach again
The heat index is supposed to be between 107 and 111 today
I need to do my laundry
Greyhound is too expensive

Four years

I didn't even manage High School for this long.

Don't know whether to see the Internet as an addiction or just as something that I enjoy... something that has been a positive in my life.


I do know that in 4 years, I've become a hermit.


what to do