Thursday, January 23, 2003

(I'm stuck)

(a reply to a message board question)

I go through it often... the whole deer in headlights thing, I guess. Your brain gets overwhelmed somehow, and so you're left with no ability but the ability to see out of your eyes it seems... and even that seems distorted.

Sometimes I can push myself through after a few hours, other times I'm stuck in it for days. It's tough to explain to other people. You can compare it to writers block, but it's more than that. It gets to the point where you can't even manage to put on your shoes. All you can do is sit there, or stand there, or lay there. It's not depression. Inside the thoughts aren't depressed thoughts. It's more some strange sort of apathy that you can't seem to shake. The answers to all the questions come out "what's the point"? (I've dubbed this state of being, "the no points".)

I don't know if it's the same as what you're describing here, but it's what popped into my brain when you asked.

My advice? Try to ride it out, stay simple. If you can't do anything other than putting on your socks, pat yourself on the back. Contrary to what most people think, it's not easy to put your socks on. Your putting your socks on will take more energy than it takes for the "average" person to get through their day at work. It will pass eventually, just try to keep that in mind, and do what you can.

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