(Grandma) cont'd

It's been a long few days.

Thanks to all of you for your words, and for just being here.

There's nothing quite like being in a room full of "family" who don't know you and whom you don't know to make you appreciate the people who really do care.

There's a lot going on in my head about my "family" right now. A lot of it is teasing. It's a tease... this feeling of hope. I know it well. It usually comes after a funeral or wedding, this feeling of hope. All of a sudden you feel that it might be possible to have something resembling a family that includes blood relatives. Then everyone goes back to being their stubborn, selfish selves (In other words, you wake up and smell the absence of coffee), and life goes on... same as it ever was.