I'm just going to keep going. I don't care anymore.
I don't care... what you say... I never did believe you much anyway.... I won't be there no more... get out of my way... let me by... blah blah blah...
Sisters and Brothers, Brothers and Sisters... blah blah blah.... Free to Be, You and Me.
We're the tired, the poor, the huddled fucking masses...
The ones who were here, whether we asked to be here or not, who see the... what? The shit and mud. We don't hold stocks, or bonds, or property... and what we "make" in a year doesn't equal what many make in a week.
...but, we behave. We don't break laws. We stay quiet. We don't even vote, for fear... for fear of being SLAPPED on the wrist... or something like that.
Home of the brave. Yeah.
Pacify us with Football and Reality TV.
Whatever.
I'll never lift a finger, I'm too much of a damn coward.
...but... there are a lot like me, who aren't.
You best let your grip on their balls go.
Thursday, September 1, 2005
~Eyes open
I know that I should shut the news off... but I can't... I WON'T.
It makes me ANGRY.
If it were me... I'd want people to be angry. I'd want people to SEE it.
I can't get your back but so much, folks... but I'll be damned if I pretend it ain't happening.
Anyone who needs a place to stay for under 3 weeks, I'm here. I can't give you more than that. I'll lose my housing... and then we'll both be fucked. :(
The space is yours, though. If you can get here. :(
I know. They won't see this. Pass it on, if you can. The whole country isn't blind.
It makes me ANGRY.
If it were me... I'd want people to be angry. I'd want people to SEE it.
I can't get your back but so much, folks... but I'll be damned if I pretend it ain't happening.
Anyone who needs a place to stay for under 3 weeks, I'm here. I can't give you more than that. I'll lose my housing... and then we'll both be fucked. :(
The space is yours, though. If you can get here. :(
I know. They won't see this. Pass it on, if you can. The whole country isn't blind.
~Shooting at the ambulance
ok, let me continue....
Let's just play "pretend" for a few minutes....
Let's pretend that I'm black, and that I have, let's say... a 2 year old little girl. She's at the stadium with her mom. I stayed at the house to protect our things and take care of my mom. My mom wouldn't leave. She's sick, and she won't leave the home she grew up in. She doesn't have health insurance. She doesn't have anything but this house.
It's been days now. I haven't had any food, or any water. Neither have the people in the stadium. My mom died when the water came in. I made my way to the city, with my gun.
Where is the help? Where are the buses? Who's getting my wife and my little girl to somewhere safe? They said it would be safe in the stadium!
There's the hospital... they're taking the patients out. That white old lady obviously had insurance. There's a half dozen people helping her out. She's gotta be 90 years old... and she's dying.
What about my little girl?!?! She's two! Why aren't some of you guys helping my little girl?!?!?
Is this really rocket science?
Let's just play "pretend" for a few minutes....
Let's pretend that I'm black, and that I have, let's say... a 2 year old little girl. She's at the stadium with her mom. I stayed at the house to protect our things and take care of my mom. My mom wouldn't leave. She's sick, and she won't leave the home she grew up in. She doesn't have health insurance. She doesn't have anything but this house.
It's been days now. I haven't had any food, or any water. Neither have the people in the stadium. My mom died when the water came in. I made my way to the city, with my gun.
Where is the help? Where are the buses? Who's getting my wife and my little girl to somewhere safe? They said it would be safe in the stadium!
There's the hospital... they're taking the patients out. That white old lady obviously had insurance. There's a half dozen people helping her out. She's gotta be 90 years old... and she's dying.
What about my little girl?!?! She's two! Why aren't some of you guys helping my little girl?!?!?
Is this really rocket science?
1051am090105 ~comment
(I wrote this in "Just let me rant" as a comment.)
The way I see it, at this point in blogging, I'm tired of writing disclaimers. I was talking about that recently, in another entry.
I use this blog to rant. I can only do so much eggshell walking. Know what I mean?
I hear you, and you didn't need to explain. I didn't get that from what you wrote, at all. If people want to find fault with what you say, they will, no matter what you write. (See latest comments in the "Back Off" entry.) Some people are just like that.
Now, if I can just listen to my own advice...
The way I see it, at this point in blogging, I'm tired of writing disclaimers. I was talking about that recently, in another entry.
I use this blog to rant. I can only do so much eggshell walking. Know what I mean?
I hear you, and you didn't need to explain. I didn't get that from what you wrote, at all. If people want to find fault with what you say, they will, no matter what you write. (See latest comments in the "Back Off" entry.) Some people are just like that.
Now, if I can just listen to my own advice...
~Just let me rant
I have a lot to say about what's going on right now, although I'm just usually caught between a scream, a cheer, and a "completely speechless", and haven't been able to say much.
People's focus on the "looting" and "lawlessness"? That, I find dumbfounding. Where the fuck have people been living?!?! Under a rock?!?! For the people in this country who are at the bottom of the income ladder, this country has SUCKED SHIT for years now! You take people who already had next to nothing, and who were treated like shit, and who had people's fingers pointing in their faces for centuries, and take away everything (including their hope) from them, what the fuck do you think they're going to do?!?!?
I just spent over 8 MONTHS waiting to get housing. I'm white. I had a cell phone to constantly call and hound the agencies. I had my paperwork in order. I had a disease, and proof of it. I had the first month's rent, and my disability check to get me by. I had a place to stay until something came through. ..and it made me fucking CRAZY. Where the HELL do you think these people are going to go!?!?!?!!? Where do you think they're going to find work!?!?!?! How do you think they're going to be able to feed their children?!?!?! ...and you want to bitch because they're stealing tvs to sell, and wanting to take out the "leaders" in society?
People say, "Well, they were told to leave!" Where the fuck should they have gone, and how in hell were they supposed to get there? The stadium?!?!?! Even if they thought about walking to the stadium, knowing what you know,.. and hearing "wolf" cried constantly in your life, WOULD YOU? It's New Orleans!!! Even all this aside, people don't want to walk the streets in many neighborhoods, at night. Would you, after being searched, trap yourself in a stadium with 10,000 strangers? Would you bring your wife and kids there? How about your grandmother?
Most of these people are people who wanted help from their government long before this... and they got very little. They got their kids sent off to Iraq, their food and cash assistance taken away, their health and prescription coverage taken away, and their corner store closed down thanks to WalMart. They were locked up, and spit on, and demonized.
Anarchy? Lawlessness? You're talking about people who didn't need a whole hell of a lot of a reason to revolt in the first place!
I have to stop. I'm getting riled, again. Maybe I'll write more later.
People's focus on the "looting" and "lawlessness"? That, I find dumbfounding. Where the fuck have people been living?!?! Under a rock?!?! For the people in this country who are at the bottom of the income ladder, this country has SUCKED SHIT for years now! You take people who already had next to nothing, and who were treated like shit, and who had people's fingers pointing in their faces for centuries, and take away everything (including their hope) from them, what the fuck do you think they're going to do?!?!?
I just spent over 8 MONTHS waiting to get housing. I'm white. I had a cell phone to constantly call and hound the agencies. I had my paperwork in order. I had a disease, and proof of it. I had the first month's rent, and my disability check to get me by. I had a place to stay until something came through. ..and it made me fucking CRAZY. Where the HELL do you think these people are going to go!?!?!?!!? Where do you think they're going to find work!?!?!?! How do you think they're going to be able to feed their children?!?!?! ...and you want to bitch because they're stealing tvs to sell, and wanting to take out the "leaders" in society?
People say, "Well, they were told to leave!" Where the fuck should they have gone, and how in hell were they supposed to get there? The stadium?!?!?! Even if they thought about walking to the stadium, knowing what you know,.. and hearing "wolf" cried constantly in your life, WOULD YOU? It's New Orleans!!! Even all this aside, people don't want to walk the streets in many neighborhoods, at night. Would you, after being searched, trap yourself in a stadium with 10,000 strangers? Would you bring your wife and kids there? How about your grandmother?
Most of these people are people who wanted help from their government long before this... and they got very little. They got their kids sent off to Iraq, their food and cash assistance taken away, their health and prescription coverage taken away, and their corner store closed down thanks to WalMart. They were locked up, and spit on, and demonized.
Anarchy? Lawlessness? You're talking about people who didn't need a whole hell of a lot of a reason to revolt in the first place!
I have to stop. I'm getting riled, again. Maybe I'll write more later.
429am090105 ~comment
Commented in "Let it go"
have a beer for me!... one of my greatest loves which i cannot have any longer due to my disease... id fukin kill for a beer hey... ironically, the problem is that it may well end up killing me...
%-)
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(My reply)
Just opened one. *lifts the bottle* Here's to you. :)
I hope that, when I die, I'll die with a beer in one hand, a smoke in the other, and a smile on my face. ;)
have a beer for me!... one of my greatest loves which i cannot have any longer due to my disease... id fukin kill for a beer hey... ironically, the problem is that it may well end up killing me...
%-)
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(My reply)
Just opened one. *lifts the bottle* Here's to you. :)
I hope that, when I die, I'll die with a beer in one hand, a smoke in the other, and a smile on my face. ;)
~Let it go
Some people, who don't know me all too well, but who do actually care, have suggested making friends with the happy Buddha.
Been there, done that. ...ok, maybe I didn't go with it all the way into monkdom, but it certainly was a path I walked on for a while. The peaceful warrior becomes the pissed off warrior, right about the time he becomes the pissed on warrior.
Our brains control our emotions. If our brains are broken, it's not about making choices anymore... It just becomes about hoping that you can get through the next episode of rage without spilling blood. I can't control my emotions. I can still control my actions, to a degree, so I try to focus on that. (Wish I could control my damn mouth/fingers better.)
What has worked for me? Well... um... beer? Seriously, that's the one thing that has actually helped. Smoking too, as it relaxes and distracts me, but especially alcohol. Sometimes, when things get beyond rough, all I can do is put myself out. It's either that, or take the drugs that do it, but they have side effects I can't handle at all.
I've gotten to the point where I can, usually, feel it coming on. I can feel when I start to spiral. I use every trick in the book to stop the spiral, but like a hurricane, there are just some things we cannot control.
So, although the Buddists have a great system, I think that it only works if one has a "standard" brain. I'm pretty sure that mine's an automatic.
Been there, done that. ...ok, maybe I didn't go with it all the way into monkdom, but it certainly was a path I walked on for a while. The peaceful warrior becomes the pissed off warrior, right about the time he becomes the pissed on warrior.
Our brains control our emotions. If our brains are broken, it's not about making choices anymore... It just becomes about hoping that you can get through the next episode of rage without spilling blood. I can't control my emotions. I can still control my actions, to a degree, so I try to focus on that. (Wish I could control my damn mouth/fingers better.)
What has worked for me? Well... um... beer? Seriously, that's the one thing that has actually helped. Smoking too, as it relaxes and distracts me, but especially alcohol. Sometimes, when things get beyond rough, all I can do is put myself out. It's either that, or take the drugs that do it, but they have side effects I can't handle at all.
I've gotten to the point where I can, usually, feel it coming on. I can feel when I start to spiral. I use every trick in the book to stop the spiral, but like a hurricane, there are just some things we cannot control.
So, although the Buddists have a great system, I think that it only works if one has a "standard" brain. I'm pretty sure that mine's an automatic.
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