re - ~When did I get so afraid?

I think that I know when I got so afraid. It was sometime in 1994. It was a BIG ol' flare up. I'd never felt so afraid in my entire life... beyond paranoia... FEAR.

I went into the hospital. They admitted me. They labeled me. Damn initials... MPD, DID, ABCDEFG... whatever. They never looked at my brain.

The fear never went away completely. I've remained, at best, constantly paranoid. That's what MS (love those initials) does. It flares up, then leaves you with scars... or holes.

Yes, the tv does talk to me, and so does the radio. Yes, THEY are watching me. Yes, the whole damn world is out to get me. I've learned to live with that. Now, I just have to learn how to die with it.