turning point (2)

I still haven't come up with an answer. It's so difficult... the few good things in my life are things that I'd never want to sacrifice reliving. So far, all I can determine is that it'd be something after June 27, 1983... but it falls apart there... just thinking that I could lose those good things because of the change... I don't know. Up until June 27, 1983 ("my awakening") life was beyond hellish. I wouldn't mind if any of it changed. After that though... that's when I had the reigns, that's when I took them, and started to make good things happen. Then, perhaps what happened before the 27th was what led to my "awakening"... it's all what makes me me.

I think that I need to think on this some more. :\