Sexuality

Over the past 5 - 10 years or so, I've come to realize just how mutable sexuality is in the course of one's life. (I'm not only talking about choices, but about actual desires.)

It's only recently that this has become, in a way, frightening to me. I see my own sexuality changing... and the reasons why it is changing scare me. I suppose I'm just realizing a lot about why I interact with others, on a sexual level, the way I do.

It makes me sad, and scared, and brings feelings of... well... I'm not sure how to articulate it. I find myself despicable... tainted maybe, but still horrible.