Tuesday, March 9, 2004

What are you?

To answer the question: "I was wondering if anyone eles's race has had a major affect on their lives for better or worse?"...

Being white? I suppose I'm white. My skin is colored, but I put the colors there. When people look at me, they see a tattooed white guy. Has this been a benefit? No. In my little corner of the world, white guys are despised or looked down on by most... by Blacks and Browns and Reds and Yellows, most Women, and even a few White guys, just for being White Guys. White guys are the "bad guys". Privilege? What a crock of shit. Not in today's world. White guys are the scapegoat now. Doesn't matter what your life is about, or who you are, or what you believe in. If you're perceived as a white guy, you're guilty until proven innocent. I really don't give a flying fart that it used to be that, or that in many places it's still the fact that, the "minority" was/is guilty until proven innocent. It wasn't me who treated "minorities" that way. In my little corner of the world, it's the white guy who's "the devil", and so I'm seen as a devil. Then, it may have something to do with living in (predominantly black sections of) Philly, and surrounding myself with women and other "minorities".

Anyway, I always feel like I have to defend myself... prove myself to people... slap a banner on my head that reads "I'm not racist, not sexist, and not homophobic".

So, I'd consider that a bit negative.

1 comment:

nexy said...

both you and i have aspects of ourselves that intersect with our whiteness. yes, we're both white, and enjoy a certain level of privilege from that. but because we also wear our queerness on our white skin, that privilege pretty much goes out the window :/

at least that's the way it feels.