Sunday, August 18, 2002

About my "disability" 3

Some of us hear voices, etc. like thoughts, some of us actually "hear" voices, etc. Some of us hear nothing.

We are a WE. No one is more important than the other.

It's a democracy, not a monarchy. Attempting to make it such causes revolution. The spokesperson for the system varies with the situation. Our strengths and weaknesses vary. Often though, it is the case that we compete for "center stage". As a general rule, when someone wants to take center stage, they are allowed to. Pulling someone off stage results in the person who did the pulling being tossed into the orchestra pit.

I often describe it as (like) riding in a car. Sometimes you're the driver, sometimes the navigator, sometimes the passenger. When it's someone else's turn to drive and you won't give up the wheel, you get thrown in the trunk. We have to share the car. There's only one.

If you're in the trunk, you can't see where the others are going. You lose sense of time/black out.

Because we've spent so long working on this, black outs are a lot more rare than they used to be... but it still does not allow me/us to live a very "productive" life. Holding down a job requires holding some sort of schedule. A schedule requires telling someone else that they can't have the wheel. It's only a matter of time before you get tossed into the trunk.

Having about 1/18th of the time that most do in life, it's pretty difficult to keep up.

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